first day

today was kai's first day of pre-school. so after an easy drop off (yay), i had plans for me and zaiah to run errands. errands with only one kid: heaven. i imagined the windows down, hair blowing in the 70 degree weather, my favorite cd cranked up, child in the back practicing her new sounds, and the graham cracker keeping her blissfully happy (and quiet). oh, didn't i say it was a dream.

the first errand to the bank turned into a screaming fit the entire drive there. i looked back to try to sooth zaiah, giving her anything i could and singing. i thought, as i looked at the empty car seat next to her: maybe this is a difficult transition for her too. or, it could be the beginning of the i-hate-my-carseat-and-will-make-everyone-miserable phase (if so, hopefully short). i tried bribery to make her happy: nursing in the car 2X. still imagining the jerry maguire free falling car scene. but, not happening.

so finally i let go of my wishful plans, and listened to my little girl. we drove home to play outside. quietly. that is what it sounds like without a 3 yr old around in the morning. quiet. zaiah picked beans from our bean tree and would take them and sit in the bumble bee car, stand up and wave bye. maybe she was taking some to kai, going grocery shopping, gathering for a feast?? who knows. it was sweet.

i missed him and we'll try errands again tomorrow. but who knows what we will do while he's at school for 3 hours. i'll wait for my little girls mood.